What does one wear when one knows one is going to transform into a massive werewolf killing machine later in the evening?\u00a0 And, yes, that works as both a “werewolf that is a killing machine” and a “werewolf-killing machine” except not a machine, per se.\u00a0 I don’t need Thomas suddenly appearing in a puff of disgusting, putrid stench to tell me that “Surprise!\u00a0 You were a robot all along!\u00a0 Lolz!”\u00a0 I can handle a lot of stuff but I think that would be my breaking point.\u00a0 So, what does a young sexy werewolf lady wear?\u00a0 Something you don’t particularly care about?\u00a0 Something that rips easy?\u00a0 Something with easy movement?\u00a0 Oh gosh.\u00a0 I can see myself showing up in one of the cute new skirts I bought, scowling and growling and kind of tossing my hips back and forth all sexy and sassy.\u00a0 Freedom of movement, less fabric to tear when changing and, hey, check out my ass and legs!\u00a0 I’m sure it’d go a long way into terrifying the bad guys into submission.<\/p>\n
Bad guys, huh?\u00a0 Last week the bad guys were the people in my own company – the ones harassing me to release credit holds on customers so they could try to sell shit to them.\u00a0 That was that.\u00a0 Bad guys exist in books and movies and are so far away from my life that it might as well be another country.\u00a0 Okay, I suppose there are bad guys in real life.\u00a0 Terrorists and drug lords and gang members and so forth.\u00a0 It happens, right?<\/p>\n
I have some time before Tyler comes back and it sounds like Elaine and Stephen are getting in some time alone so I just sit naked on my couch.\u00a0 I can feel the cold air coming in through the gaping holes of the front door but this body of mine runs hot and I’m assuming that’s the werewolf side.\u00a0 It’s a nice addition, especially with the cold slowly creeping in at nights.\u00a0 I feel my longer, thicker hair against my right ear and my hand automatically goes to tuck it behind the ear.\u00a0 It’s funny how quickly that little habit took hold.\u00a0 I pause and wonder, though.\u00a0 Is it Hannah taking over or is it actually just me getting used to having hair like this?\u00a0 My reaction or the ghost of a reaction from Hannah?\u00a0 I never liked theoretical philosophical questions of the whole “Is this really reality” and the thought kind of upsets me so I put it aside.\u00a0 Until and if I feel her changing my actions then she’s dead and I just happen to look exactly like her.\u00a0 I sure the hell am not going to start thinking of how I’m living in her skin.\u00a0 This is me.\u00a0 This is who I am now.<\/p>\n
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When I look down my body, I see perfection.\u00a0 Or, near to it.\u00a0 Hannah was a beautiful woman.\u00a0 I’m hunched slightly and I can see the very tip of my vagina.\u00a0 The clit guy.\u00a0 The awesome guy.\u00a0 My favorite little guy, actually.\u00a0 My tits have a very, very slight sag to them but that’s because they’re so damn big and gravity is gravity.\u00a0 Huh.\u00a0 I think the left one might actually be slightly\u00a0 bigger than the right.\u00a0 That’s normal, right?\u00a0 Sometimes?\u00a0 I cradle the bottom of both of them with my long fingers and gently rub against the soft skin.\u00a0 I feel their heft when I lift up.\u00a0 My nipples are down a bit and pointed off to the sides.\u00a0 They’re currently a bit flat and that’s pretty cool.\u00a0 When my nails scratch against my tits, I have to twist a little on the couch.\u00a0 I like the way that feels and I watch the darker skin around my right nipple tighten, pushing the little guy out.\u00a0 I can feel the skin move around when I watch and concentrate on it.\u00a0 That’s also nice.\u00a0 Mesmerizing, even.<\/p>\n
Another thing I enjoy is the muscles along my stomach.\u00a0 I haven’t done a single sit-up but running my hands slowly down my side feels like I’m rubbing a slightly padded rock.\u00a0 Even hunched over slightly, I have very little extra skin bunched up.\u00a0 Below my belly button are fine blond hairs tracing down to my sparse brown pubic hair.\u00a0 The little blond hairs are slightly ticklish when I gently run my fingertip along them.\u00a0 I wonder if the blond is from my male side since I used to be blond or if it’s normal for the small hairs to be different color.\u00a0 My pubic hair is a finger-width line that fans out slightly above my clit.\u00a0 That hair is almost like a bristle.<\/p>\n
I can smell the scent of my vagina even if my legs weren’t open and bare.\u00a0 I’m hoping that’s also a werewolf thing and I make a note to ask Elaine about it… if it doesn’t start a conversation about stroppy vaginas.\u00a0 It’s almost a different scent each day now that I’ve had it for more than a day.\u00a0 Very subtly different but sometimes stronger and sometimes more faint.\u00a0 I pull my legs up to my chest and the scent becomes stronger.\u00a0 My legs are smooth against my chest and I don’t feel any strain like I would’ve\u00a0 had as a man.\u00a0 I’m way more flexible and the absence of a penis seems to let my legs bend more easily.\u00a0 It’s hard to describe the difference but I remember a slight pull against different muscles when I was a man.\u00a0 My legs have those little tiny blond hairs, too so I guess it’s a normal thing.\u00a0 In a strange way, I really look forward to finding out all the “normal” woman things that happen.\u00a0 Messing with my hair, maybe learning how to do makeup, trimming my fingernails and, well, hell, who knows?\u00a0 Being a woman.\u00a0 Hopefully it’s not all creepy dudes staring at you in the stores and things like that.<\/p>\n
I glance around but there’s nobody there so, with my knees bent and against me, I extend my right leg out and up.\u00a0 And up.\u00a0 All the way vertical and it doesn’t even hurt.\u00a0 Okay, now I’m impressed with myself.\u00a0 The muscles in my thigh look like they were etched in marble – solid and perfectly formed against pale skin.\u00a0 I push my toes straight up and my calf muscles shift.\u00a0 I bring the leg slowly back down again.\u00a0\u00a0 And then up, watching the way everything works.\u00a0 I’m enjoying this.\u00a0 I haven’t spent enough time just looking at myself as a woman.\u00a0 Too many creepy wizards and hypnotized squirrels and hot naked men and women.\u00a0 Well, one of each of those in particular.\u00a0 The hot naked man and woman. \u00a0The view straight down my body is like something out of one of the few wet dreams I’ve had.\u00a0 And, sure, I’ll admit – I turn myself on.\u00a0 A lot.\u00a0 If the mood was different, I’d probably be masturbating furiously right now.\u00a0 It’s just hard to get myself over the edge sexually when there’s a little girl in danger and Hannah’s killer suddenly on the stage.\u00a0 Still, I look down and try to capture the view for some night when I’m possibly alone and in the dark and want to play with myself.\u00a0 Like right now but not right now.<\/p>\n
And then, werewolves.\u00a0 I assume that’s why Thomas’ little divining rod led him to me.\u00a0 I have a thing for werewolves so his sticks or bones or whatever the fuck they were said “Hey, try this guy.\u00a0 He’s a fucking creep and gets off on werewolves.”\u00a0 Not that I’m complaining.\u00a0 No fucking way.\u00a0 I’d say it’s a toss-up whether the werewolf part of me is a bigger draw than the female part of me.\u00a0 I think the werewolf edges the woman out but the more I’m in her body, the more I wonder if that is completely true.\u00a0 Of course, I have yet to find a bad thing about… oh, right.\u00a0 Period stuff.\u00a0 That’s supposed to suck really bad, right?\u00a0 I’ve known some ladies over the years that have said they barely feel it but the vast majority seem to rank from “Ouch, that sucks” to “I will murder you if you talk to me this week.”\u00a0 What kind was Hannah?\u00a0 Will I get whatever kind she had or does any of my biology come into play?<\/p>\n
Hell, is any of my biology left?\u00a0 Are there any little strands of my DNA wandering around Hannah’s body affecting things or is it my consciousness placed in her body and that’s that?\u00a0 That might explain the odd thoughts at the beginning.\u00a0 Wondering what having a cock in me would feel like and everything else.\u00a0 My old brain mapped into Hannah’s brain and then merged together.\u00a0 Huh.\u00a0 That’s actually kind of creepy when I think about it.\u00a0 When I think that my own body maybe just, what?\u00a0 Dissolved?\u00a0 Or is it like, shit, what was that comic I read when I was a kid?\u00a0 Miracle Man?\u00a0 Miracleman with one word?\u00a0 Where he swapped his normal body with a superhero’s body and it was an actual body swap?\u00a0 With his normal body transferred into some weird dimension?\u00a0 Magic is weird shit and that’s just accentuated by Thomas.\u00a0 If that’s what happens to everyone that dabbles in magic then count me the fuck out.\u00a0 I’m not even sure he’s alive any more.\u00a0 It looked like he was just an empty shell of a host to a bunch of creatures.<\/p>\n
So, here I sit on the couch.\u00a0 Naked.\u00a0 Wondering whether my male body is hanging up in an interdimensional closet.\u00a0 I poke at my forearm a bit.\u00a0 Thick muscles under a slightly soft padding of smooth skin.\u00a0 No way there’s a weird fucking layer of fur under there.\u00a0 And where do all the muscles come from?\u00a0 Actually, I could almost understand changing into a werewolf in real life; it’s the changing back that makes no sense.\u00a0 I get bone growth and all of that because that can actually happen with real people.\u00a0 Just, you know, way way more slowly.\u00a0 What I can’t see is how the wolf’s jaw goes away.\u00a0 How does it know to put everything back just the way it was?\u00a0 Where do the bones and muscles and fur and tendons and skin and everything go?<\/p>\n
Tyler is coming back.\u00a0 Now that I’ve smelled him again earlier, his scent is remarkably easy to track and I pick him out of the background smells two minutes before he knocks politely on the door.\u00a0 My voice (Elaine says it’s a really sexy husky female voice and that I should be a phone sex operator) sounds too abrupt in the relative silence when I tell him to come in.\u00a0 The man moves the door to the side and sidles past it.\u00a0 His eyes lock on to my body and then immediately look away.<\/p>\n
“S… sorry,” he tells me.\u00a0 I can almost hear the whimper in his voice.\u00a0 I think it’s gotten worse since he’s met me.<\/p>\n
“I’m naked.\u00a0 You’re a guy.\u00a0 I’d think there was something wrong with you if you didn’t look.”\u00a0 I stand and look at him in the corner of my eye.\u00a0 Sure enough, he sneaks a couple more glances my way and my nose tells me he’s very interested in what he sees.\u00a0 I’m surprised he’s not exploding with all the hormones he’s putting out.\u00a0 “But, I suppose if I want you to focus at all, I should get dressed.”<\/p>\n
“I mean no disrespect but you are beautiful.\u00a0 I haven’t seen a female werewolf since I left my parent’s house and, maybe I don’t remember right or maybe it’s because you’re an Alpha but I think you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.”\u00a0 He’s still not exactly looking at me.\u00a0 Not exactly.<\/p>\n
“Huh,” I tell him.\u00a0 I hope I’m hiding how pleased I am by the compliment but, he’s a werewolf too so I doubt it.\u00a0 “There’s lots of pretty girls around.\u00a0 I’ve seen them.\u00a0 Hey.\u00a0 Speaking of which – if you fuck a girl does she automatically change?\u00a0 Always?”<\/p>\n
“No.\u00a0 It’s, umm, it’s different than that.\u00a0 It’s kind of easy for an Alpha to change a normal and way harder for anyone else.\u00a0 You have to be in your wolf form and basically murdering the person to have it work.\u00a0 Nobody’s quite figured out how to make it work perfectly each time because most of us don’t go around killin’ people.\u00a0 Those that do get chased down by other pacts.\u00a0 Not many people believe we exist and we want to keep it that way.\u00a0 Fastest way to get us found out is by killin’ people.\u00a0 And then it doesn’t always go right.\u00a0 It doesn’t take for some people.”<\/p>\n
I look at him curiously.\u00a0 “What do you mean, it doesn’t take?”<\/p>\n
“They die.\u00a0 They might start changing but they’re either not strong enough or maybe not right for it and they just die.”\u00a0 Tyler swallows.\u00a0 “Sometimes it can even happen to kids born to werewolves.\u00a0 My brother died like that.\u00a0 The hormones or whatever the fuck finally came in, like puberty or whatever, and his body couldn’t take it.\u00a0 He was just seven.\u00a0 Good kid.\u00a0 Way smarter than me.”\u00a0 I don’t need to smell his pain to know how bad it is when he looks away to the corner.\u00a0 “I miss that little jerk a lot.”<\/p>\n
I never know what to say when people do that.\u00a0 What are you supposed to say?\u00a0 Usually I just go with “I’m sorry” because I don’t know what else to do.\u00a0 That doesn’t sound right here so I just nod and head to the bedroom.<\/p>\n
Stephen is clothed and sitting in the corner with Elaine on his lap.\u00a0 She has her eyes closed and the corner of her mouth is turned up in a slight smile.\u00a0 She’s leaning back against Stephen with her head on his collarbone.\u00a0 He’s humming a simple tune over and over while running his fingers through her hair.\u00a0 I can’t help but smile at the view.\u00a0 Smile and, yet, feel a slight pain.\u00a0 Despite everything, I am an outsider.\u00a0 I aggressively inserted myself into the lives of these two amazing people like I was the most important thing in their world.\u00a0 It is my house and my room and they’re my lovers (possibly more) but I feel like I’m intruding on a very, very personal moment.\u00a0 As quickly and quietly as I can, I grab some slacks and a blouse and panties and leave.<\/p>\n
Now I feel a bit depressed.\u00a0 Just a bit but it’s certainly there and it takes effort to ignore the unhappy thoughts.\u00a0 So, I try concentrating on what lies ahead.\u00a0 What I have to do is make sure all involved come out in one piece and with all their pieces still attached.\u00a0 Because I’m the Alpha and that’s apparently what Alphas do with all their muscles and werewolf-y-ness.\u00a0 And, no, the urge to pee and the slight ache in the lower part of my belly is just because my bladder is full and not at all because I’m slightly terrified of failing everyone.\u00a0 It’s just that I remember what it felt like to go up against an actual werewolf and I almost died.\u00a0 The memory is still fairly fresh and still makes me want to throw up a little bit.\u00a0 I’m not like Stephen or Elaine; I don’t go feral and crazy.\u00a0 I’m still mentally in control and my brain seems like a liability in that case.\u00a0 I pull on the panties and slacks, ignoring the way my boobies jiggle and shake as I almost crash into the wall while off-balance.\u00a0 The blouse simply slips over my head and takes a few tugs to make it fit my curves just right.<\/p>\n
The door to the bedroom creaks open and it’s a testament to how worried I am that I didn’t hear Stephen moving around.\u00a0 He’s standing at the doorway with the door cracked.\u00a0 “Can we talk to you for a moment?”\u00a0 He asks.<\/p>\n
“Yeah,” I tell him.\u00a0 Is<\/i><\/b> it Hannah that’s make me see him as attractive?\u00a0 Is it only her biology or thoughts or whatever making me see Stephen as desirable?\u00a0 As a man I’d have been able to look at him and say “Yeah, he’s handsome” and that’d be that.\u00a0 I don’t think it’s the bond created from me changing them and it’s probably not because his dick feels amazing inside of me.\u00a0 Probably not.\u00a0 Maybe.\u00a0 Sometimes I wonder if women think about sex as much as I do.\u00a0 Another note to ask Elaine.<\/p>\n
Elaine is sitting on the bed in a pair of blue jeans and a red t-shirt that says “Keep Calm and Smile On” because, of course she is.\u00a0 Below the words is the fading smile of the Cheshire Cat.\u00a0 It’s such her kind of shirt.\u00a0 Stephen is also in jeans but his shirt is a simple black Polo shirt.\u00a0 Someday I’d like to get him to dress in a Hawaiian shirt just to see if he melts.\u00a0 Or cracks.\u00a0 Stephen sits on the bed next to Elaine but neither of them offer me a spot so I stand.\u00a0 That hurts a little, too.\u00a0 I’m apparently in a touchy mood right now.\u00a0 Possibly oversensitive.<\/p>\n
“So,” I start.\u00a0 “What’s up?”<\/p>\n
Stephen glances at Elaine and then me.\u00a0 “We were wondering:\u00a0 when this is all over, would you move in with us?”<\/p>\n
Now that<\/b> takes me completely by surprise.\u00a0 I expected them to tell me they changed their minds or they hated me or I was a pain in the ass or anything other than that.\u00a0 “Wha- are you sure?\u00a0 Are you sure you want me to?”<\/p>\n
Stephen answers again while Elaine just watches me.\u00a0 “Yes, we’re sure.\u00a0 We’ve talked some together here and there and your place is too small.\u00a0 No offense.\u00a0 And, why have two places separately when it’s cheaper and easier to have one?\u00a0 Otherwise, we’d always be coming here or you’d always be coming to our place and it’d just be a waste.\u00a0 I’d have waited to ask but Elaine thought it was important to know now.\u00a0 If you wanted to stay with us, that is.”<\/p>\n
Elaine’s face is still not changing.\u00a0 They have to know I’ll say yes without even being able to feel my sudden surge of happiness.\u00a0 “I… I’d love to do that.\u00a0 I’d love to move in with you both.\u00a0 If you don’t think I’d be in the way or anything.”<\/p>\n
Elaine’s face twitches and she sputters “In… In the…” Stephen’s hand rests on her leg and she stops.<\/p>\n
“I really doubt you’d be in the way.\u00a0 I’ll want to talk, well, not rules but just talk things out when it happens.\u00a0 Relationship stuff, you know?\u00a0 And how it’ll all work and all of that.\u00a0 We’ve had lovers but never anyone that actually stayed with us.\u00a0 So there’ll be bumps and mistakes and everything but we’d like you there with us.\u00a0 We’d,” Stephen coughs a little and his eyes shift.\u00a0 “We’d like that a lot, actually.”<\/p>\n
Fuck it.\u00a0 I hug the fucker.\u00a0 I just go to him and awkwardly wrap my arms around him with my head against his.\u00a0 I feel Elaine shift around between us and then she’s joining in with her small arms.\u00a0 “Thank you,” I tell them.\u00a0 “When this is all over.\u00a0 I have a couple months left on my lease but I don’t mind paying extra for a while if I get more chances to see you two.\u00a0 If you’re really sure and you’re not just being pushed into doing this.\u00a0 Because, if that’s the case then I’d rather we didn’t.\u00a0 I don’t want that thought bothering me with everything else.”<\/p>\n
Stephen and Elaine share a glance before looking back to me.\u00a0 Stephen speaks again.\u00a0 “Hear me out before you say anything, okay?\u00a0 Part of it is.\u00a0 Part of it is because of the pull we feel towards you.\u00a0 The bond that crazy guy was talking about.\u00a0 We can’t do anything about it and it’s impossible to ignore.\u00a0 But, and this is the important part, we think you’re worth it.\u00a0 We’re both incredibly attracted to you and, well, we’ve had a few casual relationships with women before and we enjoyed them.\u00a0 Mostly.\u00a0 Most of them.\u00a0 Not the crazy ones.\u00a0 But, we’ve always felt like something was missing.\u00a0 Casual stuff is fine but it just lacks in passion.\u00a0 We’ve grown to enjoy having someone else with us and you make us feel happy and safe.\u00a0 We’d love to have you with us.\u00a0 And to see where it goes.”<\/p>\n
The thought of the bond playing any<\/i><\/b> kind of role hurts more than I want it to but he sounds sincere otherwise.\u00a0 I feel… fulfilled with them around.\u00a0 Elaine is hilarious and adorable and playful and brings out a kind of happiness that I’d never felt.\u00a0 Stephen is solid and serene and wise.\u00a0 He’s seen a lot and has a ton of life experience and I feel like he could help me grow into a better person.\u00a0 I’ll be honest with myself.\u00a0 I want to be where Elaine was earlier.\u00a0 I want him to wrap his arms around me and hold me tight.\u00a0 I’m wound up and nervous and scared and mentally exhausted and, Alpha or not, I want his arms around me.\u00a0 Calming me.\u00a0 Centering me.\u00a0 So, yes.\u00a0 Yes, I could see myself living happily with them.\u00a0 Growing and changing and learning and loving.<\/p>\n
I hug Stephen tighter and then give him a quick kiss.\u00a0 He’s still not used to it and I feel a blush come from how easy it was for me. Easy yet different.\u00a0 I see him less as “another” man and more as a beautiful person that I’m very attracted to.\u00a0 And then I break away and crush Elaine against me.\u00a0 She’s small and strong and smells amazing.\u00a0 I let her go when I hear a whispered “I can’t breathe” from her and I stand and look away from both with tears at the corner of my eyes.\u00a0 I’d like to think that it’s the new body that is making me more emotional but perhaps it’s just the situation.\u00a0 I’ve never really felt as close to anyone as I do with these two.<\/p>\n
I clear my throat and study the door away from them.\u00a0 “So, uhh, we should go then.\u00a0 I’ll just wait outside.”<\/p>\n
Stephen calls to me before I leave.\u00a0 “Hey.\u00a0 One other thing.\u00a0 This stuff that’s about to happen.\u00a0 It’s all on us.\u00a0 You’re not making us come.\u00a0 I know how it feels sometimes.\u00a0 Like you’re responsible for everything and it’s all on your shoulders.\u00a0 As a lawyer, I certainly know the feeling.\u00a0 But, I’m coming because there’s no way in hell I let some maniac kill another kid and, well, Elaine…”<\/p>\n
“I’m coming,” Elaine says.\u00a0 “Because I couldn’t live with myself if Stephen or you got hurt.\u00a0 And I saved you once even if I can’t really remember it.\u00a0 I’ll do it again if I have to.\u00a0 Because you’re both mine.”<\/p>\n
I look back at them now.\u00a0 Both of them are watching me so seriously.\u00a0 “And,” I tell them.\u00a0 “There’s no way in Hell that I’ll let anything happen to either of you.\u00a0 It’s four against two and I’m supposedly a badass.\u00a0 We’ll swoop in, save the girl and rid the world of one terrible person and then see if we can do something about this James fella.”\u00a0 I grin at both of them and tuck a loose piece of hair behind my right ear.\u00a0 “Now, let’s go, yeah?”<\/p>\n
They follow me out and we all step into my small living room.\u00a0 Tyler is still sitting but he stands when we gather.\u00a0 “How far away is it, Tyler?”\u00a0 I ask.<\/p>\n
“About 8 miles.\u00a0 Can,”\u00a0 he pauses and looks down.\u00a0 “I’m sorry, I heard you all talking inside.\u00a0 Can you really try to save James?\u00a0 He’s a piece of shit but he’s my piece of shit friend and I think he’s just fucked up right now.\u00a0 We never had nobody we could talk to about things.”<\/p>\n
“Hey,” I say.\u00a0 “I don’t want to hurt anybody.\u00a0 I don’t even want to hurt this Scott guy.\u00a0 At all.\u00a0 I’d love to smack some sense into your friend, grab the girl and then run before Scott shows up.\u00a0 I just don’t think he’ll stop until we deal with him.\u00a0 And, you’re right, this isn’t any business of the cops.\u00a0 He’d probably just murder them.\u00a0 Or get caught somehow and change in front of them.\u00a0 So, we’ll go and see what we\u00a0 can do.\u00a0 I’ll drive.\u00a0 Tyler, you sit in front and navigate.”<\/p>\n
As I’m pulling away from my poor broken front door, I decide I need a new car.\u00a0 It just feels cramped and old and embarrassing with all of these people in it.\u00a0 Especially Stephen and Elaine.\u00a0 I spend five minutes just apologizing for how dirty the car is and how I’ve never had anyone sit in the back seat and, should I push my seat forward?\u00a0 Is everyone okay back there?\u00a0 Elaine, sitting behind me, finally just pats my shoulder and I stop talking.\u00a0 Of course I’m not nervous.<\/p>\n
No, fuck it.\u00a0 I’m terrified.\u00a0 Okay.\u00a0 Elaine and Stephen don’t seem to have problems changing and this Tyler guy was born a werewolf.\u00a0 It’s second nature to him.\u00a0 But, me?\u00a0 What if it doesn’t work and that’s the difference between everyone surviving?\u00a0 I don’t want to fail.\u00a0 I couldn’t handle anyone being seriously hurt because of me.\u00a0 I’d never be able to live with myself.\u00a0 And then what if I change but I’m still mostly me?\u00a0 The me that’s never been in a real fight?\u00a0 What if I’m slow and awkward?\u00a0 Now I have to pee.\u00a0 Well, it feels like I have to pee and my heart is slowly ticking faster and faster.\u00a0 Great.\u00a0 Sweating, too.\u00a0 I can even feel it under my boobs a bit.\u00a0 Ew.<\/p>\n
The miles melt away as we pull into the older industrial part of town.\u00a0 We’re close to the river and surrounded by mostly abandoned warehouses and old refineries.\u00a0 When the town was founded, this was the heart of it.\u00a0 But, new technologies and changing commerce slowly moved all the big businesses away.\u00a0 The city has plans for renovating the area to bring in new business.\u00a0 Fifteen year old plans that have yet to have any bites.\u00a0 The city just moved on.\u00a0 Now the buildings rot and rust without anyone to take care of them.\u00a0\u00a0 And it smells bad.\u00a0 Very bad.\u00a0 Chemicals and mold and rust and dead things.<\/p>\n
I don’t want to be here.\u00a0 Do I have to pee?\u00a0 Like, actually pee?\u00a0 Or is that because I’m nervous?\u00a0 I can’t figure out what my bladder is doing exactly.\u00a0 I probably don’t have to pee.\u00a0 Probably.\u00a0 Tyler points left and right and I slow down as we get closer.\u00a0 I dodge piles of broken glass while weaving around gigantic potholes left behind by semi-trucks and other heavy equipment moving on the road.\u00a0 My eyesight is a hundred times better than when I was just a man but I can still only mostly see shadows through the broken windows of the buildings around us.<\/p>\n
“Here. Right here,” Tyler says.\u00a0 “Don’t park too close or James’ll hear us.”<\/p>\n
No.\u00a0 It’s too soon.\u00a0 And maybe I do have to pee.\u00a0 Fuck.\u00a0 It can’t be that. \u00a0My stomach is sour and knotted and I’m sure it’s just stress and worry.\u00a0 I pull into the parking lot of a massive abandoned warehouse and then park as far away from the entrance as possible.\u00a0 The company name is gone except for the faded letters “NESC” still showing in faint white paint.\u00a0 Two street lamps flicker and hum at opposite corners of the parking lot.\u00a0 I step out of the car and wrinkle my nose against the stench in the heavy, still air.\u00a0 To the east I can see the proper city.\u00a0 Far to the east and lit with the warm glow of a thousand lights and people going about their normal, happy business.\u00a0 Grass and tall weeds grow between cracks in the parking lot around us.<\/p>\n
“Ew,” Elaine says, the disgust evident her tone of voice.\u00a0 “It smells really bad out here.\u00a0 Super bad.”<\/p>\n
“You get used to it,” Tyler tells us.\u00a0 “Come on.\u00a0 And leave all your keys and wallet and stuff.\u00a0 If we have to fight, you don’t want to lose any of your shit.\u00a0 Especially if we have to run for it suddenly.”<\/p>\n
That makes sense and is something else I wouldn’t have considered.\u00a0 So, contrary to everything I’ve ever been taught, I leave my keys and things on the driver’s seat and then leave the door unlocked.\u00a0 Can a werewolf outrun an old car if they go full speed?\u00a0 I hope to never find out.\u00a0 I start walking towards the building and the other three fan out behind me.\u00a0 Their trust is both empowering and scary at the same time.\u00a0 I guess if this were a MMORPG, I’d be the tank?\u00a0 Big bad Alpha on his… her way.<\/p>\n
The closer I get to the double door entry, the more I think I hear something.\u00a0 A voice.\u00a0 A female voice.\u00a0 In pain and saying something.\u00a0 I look at Tyler but he just looks back at me.\u00a0 I don’t think he can hear it.\u00a0 And then, the doors are in front of me.\u00a0 Definitely a female voice.\u00a0 Young.\u00a0 Repeating herself.\u00a0 Something short over and over.\u00a0 Do I rush in?\u00a0 Do I go quietly?\u00a0 They’re waiting on me, dammit.\u00a0 I opt for quiet and gently press the bar for the door and wince as it quietly squeaks.\u00a0 A few weak lights swing on long cables and my eyes strain to make out all the details at once.<\/p>\n
There.\u00a0 There’s the girl.\u00a0 Standing with her back against a concrete wall.\u00a0 Still alive.<\/p>\n
Oh.<\/p>\n
Oh shit.\u00a0 There are two of them.\u00a0 Two werewolves.\u00a0 This massive looking werewolf is standing in front of the young girl, growling with his lips pulled back to show his teeth.\u00a0 A much smaller werewolf stands far to the side.\u00a0 Something in me knows that the larger one is Scott.\u00a0 Some sudden ache in my heart makes me groan quietly at the red and black werewolf.\u00a0 I need to-<\/p>\n
Before I can do anything else, Scott lashes out with a massive paw and the girl’s dress is in tatters.\u00a0 Blood spatters the wall to her side and I can see her body through the large tears.\u00a0 Her bra hangs from her left shoulder and there’s a large cut in her stomach and the right side of her right breast.\u00a0 She’s developed enough that I’m not sure she’s as young as I initially thought.\u00a0 Maybe even 18 or 19.\u00a0 The girl collapses to her knees with her arms around her stomach.\u00a0 Blood wells around her thin arms and falls to the ground around her.<\/p>\n
With no hesitation, Scott grabs the girl’s pony tail and pulls her head back.\u00a0 His cock is bare and out of his sheath.\u00a0 The smooth pink skin of the shaft and head nearly glisten in the light.\u00a0 With his free hand, he holds a large paw just beneath the knot at the base of his penis.\u00a0 The girl’s eyes are wild as the werewolf presses his cock against her lips.\u00a0 When she refuses to open her mouth, he roars and throws her to the ground.\u00a0 She falls to her hands and knees and Scott’s claws rip open the back of her dress and then he simply tears it completely off of her.\u00a0 I see bleeding claw marks all over her back.\u00a0 Her panties are expertly ripped and now she’s completely naked, torn clothing on the ground around her, soaking in her blood.\u00a0 Scott goes to his hands and feet above her.\u00a0 He’s easily four or five times her size and his massive cock looks ridiculous as it lays against her bare ass.\u00a0 She tries to scuttle away from him but his right hand pins her and pushes her neck down.\u00a0 He pulls back and his dick follows until it’s pressing against her opening.<\/p>\n
Stephen is on the move, followed a half-second later by Elaine.\u00a0 I shake myself out of the trance I’m in and start running.\u00a0 The warehouse is huge and there’s no time.<\/p>\n
Scott fairly splits the poor girl open and she shrieks as he enters her.\u00a0 His thick cock spreads her pussy lips open and he howls in triumph before clamping his teeth down on her shoulder.\u00a0 We’re less than half-way there now and I can smell her blood and Scott and James’ excitement in the air.\u00a0 Scott stands, pulling the girl with him.\u00a0 His right arm is holding her to his furry chest while his left cradles her under her left leg.\u00a0 His left hand grips her right thigh as he holds her in place.\u00a0 He pulls out of her and I see blood around his cock.\u00a0 The girl is just opening and closing her mouth from the pain.\u00a0 I pray she passes out.<\/p>\n
Elaine is in the lead.\u00a0 Far in the lead.\u00a0 She’s human but she goes to her hands and feet and then back to her feet as she runs.\u00a0 Her red hair streams behind her and I watch the tops of her ears grow into points and then continue growing out.\u00a0 Light red fur spreads from her hair and down the side of her face and then her neck, disappearing under her t-shirt.\u00a0 Her right shoe splits at both sides and I see thick black claws tipping each toe.\u00a0 A small clacking-crunching sound rings out each time her nails strike the concrete ground.\u00a0 A thin line of fur runs out from the short sleeves of her t-shirt and down her forearms.\u00a0 Veins stand out on her arms as her muscles expand.\u00a0 Skin darkens under her fingers and on the palms of her hands until thick black padding covers her developing paws.\u00a0 Fingernails splinter and are pushed aside by deadly claws as she falls to her hands and feet for the last time.\u00a0 Her face is completely covered in fur now and a line of drool flies behind her as her teeth grow into a lengthening muzzle.\u00a0 Her cute little nose turns black as the skin changes to a pebbled texture and then flattens as her face pushes out.\u00a0 Black lips pull back over a row of flesh-rending teeth no longer made for anything except killing.\u00a0 I watch as her nipples harden and then press against her shirt, growing breasts flattening as the fabric stretches.\u00a0 Three more rows of nipples grow down a line and then expand.\u00a0 The last set of nipples become exposed as her chest expands.\u00a0 Small red hairs push through her sweaty belly between her breasts and the smaller set of tits grow to a-cup size.<\/p>\n
Patches of sweat cover the red fabric of the back of her shirt.\u00a0 I can see the bones of her spine pressing against the shirt as muscles shift beneath her skin.\u00a0 A small tear in the neckline soon rips straight down the middle of her back and front just as red hairs fairly explode all along her spine and shoulders, covering her back in a soft coat of red fur.\u00a0 Her larger upper breasts swing free as she bounds towards Scott.\u00a0 The fur along Elaine’s back races up to her shoulders and then around her front, enveloping all four sets of breasts until just her nipples and the curve of her breasts are showing.\u00a0 Her growing back muscles bunch and release as she digs her claws into the ground to run.<\/p>\n
A small popping sound signals the growth of her tail.\u00a0 A furry stub pushes out of the top of her pants and then continues growing, flicking and wagging as it does.\u00a0 Small rips along the sweat-soaked legs of Elaine’s jeans expose more red fur and sleek muscle.\u00a0 I can see the strain in the seat of her pants as her hips and ass grow out to accommodate her new legs and tail.\u00a0 Finally, the top of her jeans tear and push apart.\u00a0 Her long, furry tail is high and proud above her strong, wide hips.\u00a0 The tuft of fur around her crotch nearly hide her now black pussy lips.\u00a0 Shreds of her clothes still cling to her thighs and calves as she runs even faster.\u00a0 She’s growling through her full muzzle.\u00a0 Death is in her eyes.<\/p>\n
The girl in Scott’s arms is shaking in his grasp.\u00a0 I can smell her pussy at this distance and she’s soaking wet despite herself.\u00a0 Her nipples are hard and she’s actually reaching back to grab at Scott.\u00a0\u00a0 I don’t think she’s mentally all there right now and when she braces her feet against the back of his tree-trunk like legs, I become sure of it.\u00a0 God dammit.\u00a0 I can smell her scent subtly changing.\u00a0 Becoming wolf-like.\u00a0 Her blond pubic hair is thickening, growing down to her inner thighs.\u00a0 The girl’s pink small pussy lips darken and then turn completely black as she grunts and pulls herself down harder onto Scott’s cock.\u00a0 Her pussy completely disappears behind a tuft of new fur and then the fur grows up and around her belly button.\u00a0 Small dark circles appear just above her belly button and then push out into two hard little nipples.\u00a0 Two more grow above those and then two more above those.\u00a0 The girl’s modest breasts are becoming engorged and she twists on Scott’s cock as they grow.\u00a0 Fur pushes up her belly and between the new rows of tits growing on her stomach.\u00a0 Fangs draw blood on the girl’s lips when they grow out and cut into her.\u00a0\u00a0 The red smeared lipstick covering her lips nearly fades to nothing as the girl’s nose and lips turn black, signaling the start to her muzzle.<\/p>\n
Stephen is ripping through his clothes, changing faster than Elaine.\u00a0 His shirt is already gone and his hairless muzzle is dripping blood as canine teeth push aside his human teeth.\u00a0 \u00a0His chest hair vanishes beneath a carpet of fur that circles around to his back and then down to his pants.\u00a0 Stephen’s forearms triple in size before they become completely covered in fur.\u00a0 The thick black padding on the palms of his hands are already in place and claws tear through fingernails, anchoring themselves to the new, stronger bones of his hands.\u00a0 He growls and nearly stumbles when his tailbone cracks and expands, nerves that didn’t exist before attaching to his werewolf’s tail as it grows.<\/p>\n
I’m falling behind.\u00a0 Even Tyler is changing and just ahead of me.\u00a0 I can feel<\/i><\/b> the wolf at the back of my mind, growling and raging and wanting out.\u00a0 I can feel her roaring anger.\u00a0 I can almost physically feel her straining against the chains holding her in place.\u00a0 What do I do?\u00a0 What am I supposed to do?\u00a0 How do I just make it happen?\u00a0 How do I make the wolf just take over and do her thing?<\/p>\n
Oh.<\/p>\n
The wolf.<\/p>\n
The wolf is me.\u00a0 She’s not a separate thing.\u00a0 It’s not Hannah.\u00a0 It’s me.\u00a0 It’s part of me.\u00a0 That’s what was different earlier.\u00a0 That’s why something felt different.<\/p>\n
I don’t push now.<\/p>\n
I relax.\u00a0 I relax this stupid control I’ve tried to have.\u00a0 This control that says “I am a man.\u00a0 This is not my body.\u00a0 These are not my urges.\u00a0 This is because of Hannah.\u00a0 This is because of the woman’s body.\u00a0 This is not me.\u00a0 This is not my fault.”\u00a0 It is me.\u00a0 All of this is me.\u00a0 I accept it.\u00a0 I accept that I think Stephen is amazing and hot because he IS amazing and fucking attractive as hell.\u00a0 Not because I’m riding in a woman’s body.\u00a0 I desire him because of what he means to me.\u00a0 Not because of phantom hormones from a dead woman.\u00a0 It’s a part of who I am now.\u00a0 It’s me.<\/p>\n
And the wolf?\u00a0 The wolf is my raw personality, stripped of any niceties or societal influences.\u00a0 She is the primal me.<\/p>\n
She is me and I let her all the way in.<\/p>\n
I feel the heat spreading through my body now.\u00a0 We’re over halfway to Scott and he finally sees us.\u00a0 I read the fury in his face a moment before he sees me and confusion hits him.\u00a0 Confusion and… terror?\u00a0 I see all of this before a pain in my skull makes me grunt and look away.\u00a0 I see my nose and feel the pain in my jaw as my face cracks and moves.\u00a0 My hearing goes temporarily before the heat turns into a burning sensation on my scalp.\u00a0 When my hearing come back, everything becomes louder, more defined.\u00a0 I taste blood as new teeth cut my tongue to ribbons.\u00a0 I spit and some teeth go with the bloody globs that fly out of my mouth.<\/p>\n
I can’t… two feet is weird.\u00a0 Going on two legs is weird.\u00a0 I go to my hands and feet and that doesn’t feel right, either.\u00a0 The concrete is hard against my hands and they’re too short.\u00a0 Too short until the heat spreads to my legs and I feel the thin material of my pants split.\u00a0 Cool air surrounds my sweating skin.\u00a0 My ankles crack and I feel joints popping in my feet.\u00a0 My poor shoes, so simple and small, explode around my feet.\u00a0 Claws cut into concrete when my feet touch the ground again.\u00a0 My lengthening feet pull my pinkie toe back as my legs reshape into something more suited to running on all fours.\u00a0 More tears around my pants as my thigh muscles feel like they double in size.\u00a0 I’m suddenly ahead of Stephen and Tyler and two body lengths behind Elaine.\u00a0 I stumble briefly when my hips break and heal.\u00a0 The only way I know my pants are nearly all the way gone is because I feel cool air on my pussy and legs and it feels amazing.\u00a0 I’m burning hot enough to melt.\u00a0 I want to stop and tear my shirt off but I know I can’t stop.\u00a0 We have to get to Scott before he kills the girl.<\/p>\n
My shoulders itch badly and I almost stumble again when my shirt rips down the back.\u00a0 I feel the hairs growing along my spine and neck.\u00a0 I feel the cool air swaying through hairs that didn’t exist a moment ago.\u00a0 My tongue lolls out of my mouth and I wrap it around my muzzle to lick the drool and blood off of my lips.\u00a0 I feel pinches down my stomach and I know my other nipples – the wolf’s nipples are growing in.\u00a0 Skin bunching and puckering as the tiny nipples grow fat and then push out as tiny breasts grow around them.\u00a0 My own heavy breasts are growing and it kind of hurts because of the way they’re just flopping around freely without my shirt holding them in place.\u00a0 I don’t even know how large they are now; I just feel the itchy and painful and, yet, pleasurable feeling of being naked and free and running as fast as I can.\u00a0 The cool air on my pussy lips stops when the fur creeps down my stomach and around my crotch and thighs.\u00a0 I feel the claws of my hands and feet actually cut into the concrete and I want to laugh and growl and roar at the same time.\u00a0 And then I do growl when my tail pushes out.\u00a0 It’s not a comfortable feeling.\u00a0 My center of balance is suddenly thrown off as the stub grows into a puppy’s tail and then the tail twitches to the left and hard to the right and I’m suddenly straight again.\u00a0 I feel like I could dance on the head of a pin with my wolf’s tail providing counterbalance to my movements.<\/p>\n
I’m fast as hell but I still can’t quite reach Elaine.\u00a0 I look up to see the girl on her knees in front of Scott.\u00a0 She’s got one of her hands on the man’s ass and her other hand wrapped around his massive cock.\u00a0 Her long wolf’s tongue is eagerly lapping at the man’s thickness, cleaning off both blood and cum.\u00a0 I can see thick ropy white cum oozing out of her pussy, tangling in her fur and leaking onto the ground.\u00a0 She takes his head in his mouth and her tail nearly thumps at the ground as she pulls her hand off of his ass to play with her clit through the fur.<\/p>\n
Elaine leaps for Scott and the werewolf shoves the young wolf girl away, hard.\u00a0 Her head slams into the concrete and she collapses in a heap.\u00a0 Scott roars, crouching.\u00a0 Ready.\u00a0 And then James slams into Elaine’s side and they both go tumbling.\u00a0 I saw his jaws close around Elaine’s stomach when he hit and, for a moment I’m terrified that she’s badly hurt.\u00a0 For a moment.\u00a0 Because now it’s my turn.\u00a0 Scott is directly ahead of me.\u00a0 I jump at the same time he does.\u00a0 He looked huge before but, now… now he doesn’t look quite so scary.\u00a0 Not quite.\u00a0 Except his mouth looks like a shark’s open maw and his claws are like daggers.\u00a0 He hits me first and I feel the air slam out of me.\u00a0 There’s a burn in my side where his claws have sunk into me.\u00a0 Unlike my non-fight with James and Tyler, I see Scott’s free hand coming around to hit my face.\u00a0 My muzzle.\u00a0 Whatever.\u00a0 I reach for his wrist and I’m somehow fast enough to grab it.\u00a0 My other hand goes for his throat but I end up hitting him in the jaw.<\/p>\n
I can feel Scott’s engorged, sticky cock pressing against the soft, short fur of my belly.\u00a0 He’s huge and still hard and still dripping with cum.\u00a0 I bet Hannah enjoyed the hell out of sex with him and that monstrous penis.\u00a0 And then, the thought is wiped when we both slam into the ground.\u00a0 It.\u00a0 Hurts.\u00a0 Concrete against fur and skin and it almost feels like I jammed my tail.\u00a0 A sudden yelp escapes my lips.\u00a0 Instincts take over and I flip Scott over as we roll.\u00a0 In the corner of my eye I see Stephen hit the wall near the girl as he tries to turn to follow Elaine and James.\u00a0 I guess the feral wolves aren’t exactly graceful either.\u00a0 His tail flicks and he pushes himself off the wall and the floor and then is gone in a blur.<\/p>\n
Scott’s jaws snap at my face and I swipe at him before realizing he still has his claws in my side.\u00a0 I’m reminded of this when he drags them down my side and against my hips.\u00a0 Blood gushes out of me and the pain is intense enough that I’m howling in pain.\u00a0 I accidentally let his other hand go and am rewarded by Scott nearly taking my left tit off of me.\u00a0 The large one on the top.\u00a0 He misses my nipple by barely an inch.\u00a0 I grab the hand that’s stuck in my hip and I feel him flex hard against my grip.\u00a0 I try to grab his other hand but he’s too fast for me so I grab his throat.\u00a0 The rough padding on the palm of my hand doesn’t let me feel much of his skin but it’s there and I can feel the muscles in his throat and hand tensing and moving as he twists.\u00a0 And his cock is still hard.\u00a0 I will never, ever admit this but my pussy is right on top of his dick and it’s pressed between my lips.\u00a0 And it feels hot and fucking good because we’re moving around and I’m basically grinding on this baseball bat sized dick.\u00a0 And the funny thing is?\u00a0 I’m fucking turned on more than I’ve ever been.\u00a0 I feel the wolf loving this.\u00a0 The struggle.\u00a0 The fight.\u00a0 I feel the sudden relaxing of muscles inside of me and now my pussy’s drooling at the thought of this psychopath’s cock.\u00a0 I wonder how full I’d be if he shoved it hard into me.\u00a0 The wolf is practically panting for it.\u00a0 She paradoxically wants to take him and ride him hard but also wants to be forced into submission with her (mine) ass raised in the air and mounted.\u00a0 It’s the fight and the she-wolf and the smell of sex and wolves and blood and I’m so riled up that it’s… it’s…hard… think… Getting… hard… to…<\/p>\n
I roar and feel a sudden immense strength flood into me.\u00a0 Adrenaline or some werewolf thing is feeding my muscles and I feel something crack inside of Scott’s wrist.\u00a0 His free hand is on my forearm and he’s frantically trying to get me off of his throat.\u00a0 I feel heat and anger and raw sexuality and I want to rut and fuck and fight and kill.\u00a0 Mate.\u00a0 I want to mate.\u00a0 I want my mates.\u00a0 Mates?<\/p>\n
I see Elaine holding her side and stumbling.\u00a0 Trying to get up and falling again.\u00a0 She has a very, very bad wound on her stomach and I see something glistening through her paw.\u00a0 Something purple and fat like a sausage.\u00a0 The fur around her muzzle is covered in blood and James has a large patch of skin and fur missing from his upper left arm.\u00a0 I can see a broken bone through the thick muscle of the werewolf’s arm and blood is spurting out of the wound.\u00a0 Elaine sits hard on the ground then rolls over to her side, holding her stomach.\u00a0 Her legs are kicking out over and over and she’s snapping at the air in pain.<\/p>\n
It’s hard to tell expressions with a\u00a0 wolf’s muzzle but James looks almost as if he’s gloating as he stands over Elaine.\u00a0 I almost feel sorry for him when Stephen barrels into him.\u00a0 Almost.\u00a0 Now I just feel sorry for Tyler.\u00a0 James possibly had a chance before.\u00a0 Before he hurt Elaine.\u00a0 Now… now I think he has nothing.\u00a0 Stephen is larger, faster and stronger than James.\u00a0 So much so that it’s almost comical.\u00a0 James is struggling with his one good arm to strike at Stephen but Stephen just snatches the man’s hand mid-strike and pins it.\u00a0 And then, good calm Stephen clamps his muzzle on James’s shoulder and bites.\u00a0 Hard.\u00a0 I hear the bones break and Stephen is still biting.\u00a0 James’ howling is cut off when Stephen grab’s the werewolf’s throat and nearly crushes it.\u00a0 James is kicking and trying to toss Stephen off of him but Stephen is still worrying at the man’s shoulder.\u00a0 Blood is covering both men and Stephen’s entire head and chest is shockingly red.\u00a0 Stephen’s ears twitch back as he gives a final pull back with his jaws.\u00a0 James’ arm comes away from his body and the wolf beneath Stephen is trying to scream in pain through the iron grip Stephen has around his throat.\u00a0 Stephen pulls his head back into a triumphant howl before bending forward to tear a bloody hole out of James’ throat.\u00a0 I watch Stephen eat a chunk of the man’s throat before I turn to look for Tyler.<\/p>\n
Tyler is standing over the young girl’s prone body.\u00a0 She’s shivering again and half-human.\u00a0 Her body is covered in bruises and blood and she’s bleeding from her half-muzzle.\u00a0 With every tremor, another wad of Scott’s cum leaks out of her now bare pussy.\u00a0 She’s pulling herself into a fetal position as she moans and twists.\u00a0 Patches of fur cover her body down to her still wolf-like feet.\u00a0 Her pussy lips are still the jet black of the wolf’s pussy.<\/p>\n
Stephen is now holding Elaine in his lap.\u00a0 The gesture is incongruous with the werewolf’s form.\u00a0 From the little I can see, Elaine is not moving.<\/p>\n
I feel my grip on Scott’s throat lessen and I’m pulled back suddenly into my own fight.\u00a0 I look down at this man.\u00a0 This wolf. \u00a0The cause of all of this.\u00a0 Elaine… I feel sympathy for the young girl but my mate… my mate…<\/p>\n
Tendons stand out in my arm as I renew my grip.\u00a0 I think I feel his other hand break but I’m concentrating on his face and his throat.\u00a0 Closing.\u00a0\u00a0 Closing my grip.\u00a0 His eyes are reddening.\u00a0 He takes a huge gulp of air and then I find just the right angle to close off his airways.\u00a0 His free arm is clawing at me now.\u00a0 It hurts but not as much as the visual of Elaine hurts.\u00a0 Not as much as the thought of Elaine dying hurts.\u00a0 There’s a small ‘crick’ sound deep within Scott’s throat and he’s suddenly panicking.\u00a0 Panicking and gasping.\u00a0 I let his broken wrist go and claw down his chest, tearing through one of his nipples as I cut him open.\u00a0 His back arches and he tries to twist his body to throw me off.\u00a0 I claw at his stomach hard, digging deep within him.\u00a0 There’s some resistance but my claws are sharp and I’m stronger than he is.\u00a0 The inside of his belly is slippery with blood and organs.\u00a0 The smell is oddly appealing.\u00a0 All I see now is red.\u00a0 Red and blood and Elaine lying on her side, unmoving.\u00a0 I don’t even realize I have my muzzle in Scott’s belly until I taste flesh and copper on my tongue.<\/p>\n
I don’t stop.\u00a0 The she-wolf is howling inside of me.\u00a0 Pushing me.\u00a0 Feasting on Scott.\u00a0 I feel his still engorged cock against my muzzle as I tear into his intestines, biting and clawing and swallowing flesh.\u00a0 Elaine on her side.\u00a0 Red.\u00a0 Pain.\u00a0 Blood.\u00a0 I dig my claws in and pull as hard as I can.\u00a0 Scott’s chest cracks open and I shove my muzzle deep into his chest.\u00a0 His heart still beats as I bite into it.\u00a0 I pull as I bite and it comes free of his chest.\u00a0 I sit back on my haunches, tail limp and bloody on the ground.\u00a0 My tits are covered in blood and my pussy is burning with the desire to fuck something.\u00a0 I am rage.\u00a0 Raw rage and aggression and heat.\u00a0 I swallow Scott’s entire fucking heart as he dies beneath me.<\/p>\n
I smell my mate.\u00a0 I smell him.\u00a0 I want him.\u00a0 I will take him.\u00a0 I will take his knot into my swollen pussy and ride his cock until I’m screaming from orgasm.\u00a0 I will… I will… Elaine.\u00a0 Elaine is there.\u00a0 She… she’s hurt.\u00a0 Elaine… my mate… my mate is hurt.\u00a0 She… No.\u00a0 I’m me.\u00a0 I’m me.<\/p>\n
I stand and nearly fall over.\u00a0 It’s difficult to think.\u00a0 The wolf is still there and she’s a whirlwind of emotions.\u00a0 I push and push until I can think straight.\u00a0 Tyler is holding the completely human girl in the corner.\u00a0 He’s still a wolf but she’s not awake to see it.\u00a0 Stephen is holding Elaine and watching me.\u00a0 I see him in there.\u00a0 In his eyes.\u00a0 The calm, brilliant golden eyes.\u00a0 Watching me.\u00a0 Wondering what I will do.<\/p>\n
And then I see Elaine’s chest move.\u00a0 She’s breathing.\u00a0 She’s fucking breathing.\u00a0 Her hand falls away from her stomach and it is whole again.\u00a0 Bloody but healed.\u00a0 I want to cry but I can’t.\u00a0 The wolf won’t let me.<\/p>\n
We fucking did it.\u00a0 Scott is dead and the girl is still alive.\u00a0 James… I couldn’t help him.\u00a0 Not after what he did to Elaine.\u00a0 If Stephen hadn’t killed him, I’m sure I would have.\u00a0 The anger was too great.\u00a0 I will deal with Tyler when I can.\u00a0 But, for now, we fucking did it.\u00a0 I stand, tail down and back and look around me.\u00a0 I feel my wounds itching as they heal.\u00a0 The brown fur covering me is matted with blood and I can still taste Scott’s heart on my tongue.\u00a0 I’m still riled up.<\/p>\n
I take a step towards Elaine and Stephen and it is that step that saves my life.\u00a0 Scott and James’s bodies burn into sudden nothingness, leaving behind a whiff of sulfur.\u00a0 Glowing red circles suddenly surround Stephen and Elaine and Tyler and the girl.\u00a0 I’m stepping out of the circle as it appears beneath me and I yelp in pain as it turns black and vanishes.<\/p>\n
“Well,” a voice rings out from the corner of the warehouse.\u00a0 “Well, well, well.”\u00a0 Thomas steps into the room and even in the dim lights of the warehouse I see a faint black cloud of death surrounding him.\u00a0 He’s missing an eye now and I can’t see into the hole where his eye socket should be.\u00a0 “That was a mistake.\u00a0 Yes.\u00a0 A lucky mistake for you.\u00a0 Yes.”<\/p>\n
I can’t talk as a werewolf.\u00a0 I could change back but I would be horribly vulnerable.\u00a0 Human and woozy from the change back.\u00a0 So I hunch slightly, ready to charge.<\/p>\n
Thomas laughs.\u00a0 “Hah!\u00a0 No, you don’t want to do that.\u00a0 No.\u00a0 Not while I have the rest of them.\u00a0 Not while I have your pack.\u00a0 No.\u00a0 So, a lucky mistake but this still works.\u00a0 I still have you, don’t I?\u00a0 A cage not of the demonic sense but of the moral and humanistic sense.\u00a0 Yes.\u00a0 Far better.\u00a0 Far more fun.”<\/p>\n
Stephen strikes out and then pulls his hand back in a growl.\u00a0 The fur on his paw is singed black where he struck the invisible walls of the circle.<\/p>\n
“Struggle all you like, young dog.\u00a0 Death magic, even though they were already dead, is the strongest.\u00a0 Not even a wolf such as you can break out of that.\u00a0 You’ll starve before the hellfire powering that prison fades.\u00a0 Now,” Thomas turns back to me.\u00a0 “Now we get down to business.\u00a0 I hoped you would die in the attack.\u00a0 That would make this all so much easier for me.\u00a0 So much easier.\u00a0 I could perform the same surgery and, viola!\u00a0 I could look for a more willing subject.\u00a0 So much easier.\u00a0 But did you make it easy for poor Thomas?\u00a0 No.\u00a0 No, you didn’t.\u00a0 And now look.”<\/p>\n
It would take me five seconds to reach the strange man.\u00a0 Five seconds.\u00a0 An eternity.\u00a0 He would probably just close the circles or do something to kill everyone.\u00a0 Too long.<\/p>\n
“So, here is the deal.\u00a0 Surrender the skin to me.\u00a0 Surrender it to me and I’ll take it and leave and you’ll all be free to go.\u00a0 You may even survive.\u00a0 In fact, perhaps this makes it easier for me after all.\u00a0 Alive, I can simply break the lock on the skin.\u00a0 Dead, I have to cut it off and inscribe it again.\u00a0 So, so, so.\u00a0 Maybe this is better after all.\u00a0 Well?”<\/p>\n
I growl at the man.\u00a0 Now I wish I could talk.\u00a0 Now I wish I could argue and barter.<\/p>\n
“I assume you know what will happen if you say no?\u00a0 Your pack will die, Alpha.\u00a0 And then you can see if you’re fast enough to kill me before I leave.\u00a0 Perhaps you are.\u00a0 Regardless, your pack will die first.\u00a0 All I’m asking is for the skin.\u00a0 That’s all I want and you have my word of honor that I will let them go.\u00a0 My personal word.\u00a0 Just kneel and let me bind you.”<\/p>\n
Give it up?\u00a0 Just like that?\u00a0 Give all of this up?\u00a0 Go back to being me?\u00a0 A male?\u00a0 A human?\u00a0 Hannah gave all of this to me.\u00a0 If I let him take it back… even if I do live… then what?\u00a0 What then?\u00a0 Go back to being normal?\u00a0 Give up this life and go back to that?<\/p>\n
I can’t.\u00a0 I can’t do it.\u00a0 I can’t.\u00a0 I’ve never lived such a full life like this.\u00a0 The feelings, the sensations, the raw power and sensuality… all of it would be gone.\u00a0 I’d be less.\u00a0 So much less.\u00a0 I could… if I fight, Stephen and Elaine die but they’re just feral werewolves.\u00a0 Not even human.\u00a0 They wouldn’t feel a thing.\u00a0 I wouldn’t have to be guilty because they’re just wolves.\u00a0 Not human.\u00a0 And Tyler?\u00a0 I don’t even know him.\u00a0 Or the girl.\u00a0 Hell, the girl will probably die from the strain anyway.\u00a0 They all die and I walk away.\u00a0 I might even kill Thomas and then I’d be completely free.\u00a0 Completely free to run and start over.\u00a0 I can’t just give this up.\u00a0 I can’t just go back to being plain.<\/p>\n
Stephen is still watching me.\u00a0 Unmoving.\u00a0 His eyes are steady on mine.\u00a0 He knows.\u00a0 Even feral as he is, he knows what I’m thinking.\u00a0 He knows what I’m struggling with.\u00a0 So, why?\u00a0 Why isn’t he raging?\u00a0 Why isn’t he howling at me to give it up?\u00a0 Why is he just fucking staring at me with those fucking eyes of his?\u00a0 Why doesn’t he just give into his fucking rage so I can try to kill this fucking asshole and only remember the feral side of him?\u00a0 Why does he have to be so fucking calm even now?\u00a0 If I didn’t know any better, I’d say his eyes were understanding.\u00a0 Why?<\/p>\n
Why won’t he tell me what to do?\u00a0 Oh god. \u00a0Oh god.\u00a0 I don’t want to die.\u00a0 I don’t want to lose this incredible piece of me.\u00a0 I can’t.\u00a0 I can’t do this.\u00a0 Nobody would ever have to know.\u00a0 Nobody…\u00a0 Oh god.<\/p>\n
I kneel and look down at my knees.\u00a0 My beautiful fur is tangled so badly with sweat and blood.\u00a0 I gently stroke through the fur on my legs, untangling what I can.\u00a0 I feel my tail against my ass.\u00a0 I feel the way my pussy pulses from the need I felt earlier.\u00a0 I close my eyes to let this memory last as long as possible.\u00a0 In the distance, I hear Thomas cackling and then cursing followed by the sharp scent of blood.\u00a0 Tainted blood, it smells like.\u00a0 I hear a sudden hum all around me and I know I’m caught.\u00a0 Thomas shuffles over to me and, when he stops, I open my eyes and look up at him.\u00a0 He steps back sharply and then titters to himself.<\/p>\n
“Oh gosh.\u00a0 Yes, caught.\u00a0 Hah.\u00a0 Scared me for a second.\u00a0 But, what beautiful golden eyes.\u00a0 Hannah was always so beautiful and strong and proud and it looks like she still is.\u00a0 Worry not, I’ll keep my promise.\u00a0 As soon as I break the lock on her skin and leave, I will break their circles.\u00a0 They’ll be free.\u00a0 I promise.\u00a0 I just won’t promise that you’ll live through this.\u00a0 You might want to close your eyes.”\u00a0 Strangely enough, his voice becomes almost gentle.\u00a0 “I’ll be as quick as I can.\u00a0 Close your eyes, Hannah.”<\/p>\n
I don’t.<\/p>\n
I’m not Hannah.<\/p>\n
Thomas stares at me for a moment and then nods.\u00a0 He looks along my body as if trying to find the seams.\u00a0 He points at various spots and then makes a complicated gesture.\u00a0 His single eyes flashes with a moment of impossible pity and then he slams his right fist against his open left hand.<\/p>\n
Every single nerve in my body screams in agony.\u00a0 I’ve never felt anything like it.\u00a0 I’ve never felt such pain in my life.\u00a0 The world is screaming around me and all I see is red and every nerve in my body is a molten point of pain.\u00a0 And then, I feel nothing.<\/p>\n
The world flashes around me.\u00a0 I remember darkness.\u00a0 And cold.\u00a0 Growls and bumps.\u00a0 Somebody touching me.\u00a0 Screaming.\u00a0 Voices.\u00a0 Words.\u00a0 Pain.\u00a0 Through it all, pain.\u00a0 I’m talking.\u00a0 Feverish.\u00a0 I’m lying down.\u00a0 Now I’m in the corner of somebody’s bedroom, rocking and crying and screaming and in pain.\u00a0 Lying down again.\u00a0 Covered in blankets filled with biting ants.\u00a0 Somebody over me.\u00a0 Light.\u00a0 Water.\u00a0 Pain.\u00a0 Speaking in tongues.\u00a0 Thomas in front of me, pity on his eyes, his fist in his palm.\u00a0 Pain.\u00a0 Thomas watching me.\u00a0 Watching.\u00a0 And then, he opens his fist and I open my eyes.<\/p>\n
I’m in bed.\u00a0 The sheets are soaked in sour sweat.\u00a0 It’s not my bed and this is not my room.\u00a0 My whole body aches.\u00a0 I can’t feel anything except the pain throughout my body.\u00a0 My lips and throat are dry and it feels like I’ve been crying.\u00a0 A small patch of sunlight shines through heavy curtains on the single window in the room.\u00a0 I twist and moan but stop moving when the pain comes back.\u00a0 Something moves and suddenly Elaine is in front of me.\u00a0 Her eyes are red and watery.\u00a0 She reaches to touch my head but then stops and pulls her hand back.<\/p>\n
“Are,” she whispers.\u00a0 “Are you awake?”<\/p>\n
I try to answer but I can’t so I just nod my head.\u00a0 My neck hurts.\u00a0 Everything hurts.<\/p>\n
“I’ll get you some water and some more pills.\u00a0 You still need to rest.\u00a0 You need to sleep.”<\/p>\n
I blink and she’s there with pills and a glass of water.\u00a0 I try to tell her I must’ve fallen asleep but nothing comes out.\u00a0 She smiles tremulously and a single tear rolls down her cheek.\u00a0 “This will hurt,” she tells me.\u00a0 “But you need to take the pill and sleep.”\u00a0 She reaches behind my head and props me up.\u00a0 I gasp and try to lie back down but I’m weak and can’t move.\u00a0 I nearly choke on the water and pill when she gives them to me.\u00a0 She lays my head gently back down and when I open my eyes again, there’s no sun coming through the window.<\/p>\n
Time passes like this.\u00a0 I wake and Elaine is there to give me another pill.\u00a0 Over and over until, finally, I’m able to talk.<\/p>\n
“Elaine,” I say.\u00a0 I cough and my stomach hurts enough that I wonder if I’m going to throw up.\u00a0 “What happened?”<\/p>\n
“No,” she tells me.\u00a0 “You still need to sleep.\u00a0 Let it wait.”<\/p>\n
“No.\u00a0 Tell me, Elaine.\u00a0 Tell me.”<\/p>\n
I see the concern and indecision on her face.\u00a0 Her eyes are red and looks like she’s been crying again.\u00a0 “We,” she starts.\u00a0 “We feel your pain.\u00a0 Stephen and I feel it.\u00a0 Literally, we feel the pain of your suffering.\u00a0 It hurts so much.\u00a0 Tyler doesn’t know why we can feel it.\u00a0 He’s never heard of it happening.\u00a0 He’s… He… We don’t remember what happened that night.\u00a0 Stephen and I were changed still.\u00a0 Tyler can remember it.\u00a0 He said… He said Thomas showed up.\u00a0 He didn’t know him but he described him.\u00a0 He says he trapped us all but not you.\u00a0 Not you.”\u00a0 She stops to look at me again.\u00a0 “Please.\u00a0 Please, don’t do this yet.\u00a0 Wait for another day.”<\/p>\n
I shake my head and mouth ‘no’ at her.<\/p>\n
Elaine covers her eyes and swallows hard.\u00a0 “Tyler said Thomas made you give it back.\u00a0 Made you give Hannah back.\u00a0 You kneeled and Thomas did his magic and then left.\u00a0 And… you…”<\/p>\n
I know then.\u00a0 I move my hand under the covers and I can feel my manhood.\u00a0 The smooth, taut skin I had when I was a woman has been replaced with the hairy rough skin I have as a man.\u00a0 It feels like I lost weight from when I was a man so I’ve probably been here a while.\u00a0 I nod at Elaine again, too tired to cry about it right now.<\/p>\n
“Tyler says the skin… Hannah’s skin… just fell off of you and you were there.\u00a0 Just you.\u00a0 In so much pain.\u00a0 I can remember part of that, even with the change.\u00a0 The pain of it.\u00a0 So much of it. It woke me up and I can remember some of it.\u00a0 Thomas left and we could move again.\u00a0 Tyler says Stephen picked you up and they almost got into a fight with what to do with you.\u00a0 Tyler changed back and we got into the car and drove you to our house.\u00a0 It’s been a little over two weeks since then.”<\/p>\n
Two weeks<\/i>, I think.\u00a0 Two fucking weeks and I’m still in this much pain and still this weak.\u00a0 And a man again.\u00a0 I feel no wolf prowling in the back of my mind.\u00a0 I feel nothing.\u00a0 My sense of smell is nothing and I can barely hear a single bird chirping outside.<\/p>\n
“Stephen worked carefully with a friend on the force and they were able to pin the crimes – the one with the girls vanishing – on Scott.\u00a0 They’re still looking for Scott but not so much anymore.\u00a0 The girl lived.\u00a0 She just turned nineteen and she’s with Tyler right now.\u00a0 Oh, and Tyler is here.\u00a0 He doesn’t want to leave until you’re better.\u00a0 He’s teaching the girl about the werewolf stuff.\u00a0 She’s going to stay until she understands it better.\u00a0 I think they make a cute couple but Tyler refuses to do anything with her.\u00a0 Says it’d be taking advantage of her because she’s confused right now.\u00a0 He’s a good guy.”\u00a0 Elaine is gently rubbing my arm through the blanket and it doesn’t hurt very much.\u00a0 It’s an odd counterpoint to how much she’s rambling.<\/p>\n
“Are you,” I ask and then stop to breathe.\u00a0 “Are you still a wolf?”<\/p>\n
Elaine bites her lower lip and looks away.\u00a0 She nods.<\/p>\n
“Am… am I?”<\/p>\n
She’s still looking away but she closes her eyes and shakes her head.\u00a0 I can’t cry about that yet, either.\u00a0\u00a0 Tears are freely rolling down Elaine’s face and her lips are trembling.\u00a0 “I’m,” she stops and sobs a bit and presses the heel of her hands against her eyes.\u00a0 “I’m so sorry.\u00a0 I’m so sorry.\u00a0 If we hadn’t been there…”<\/p>\n
I shake my head and try to reach for her but my hands are under the blanket and I’m too tired to get them out.\u00a0 “No,” I tell her.\u00a0 “No, don’t.\u00a0 Don’t feel… don’t feel bad.\u00a0 Tired.\u00a0\u00a0 Tired, Elaine.”\u00a0 I don’t remember falling asleep but I do.<\/p>\n
I spend the next month slowly working my way up to solid food.\u00a0 My joints still ache but I can stand and go to the bathroom by myself and I consider that a win.\u00a0 Stephen visits sometimes to talk but not as much as Elaine.\u00a0 I think they figure Elaine will be easier for me to relate to and is more cheerful for me.\u00a0 They’re possibly right.\u00a0 Tyler stops in now and again to check on me and he’s always awkward when he does it.\u00a0 He can’t quite look at me and he tries to tell me what he’s doing and how the girl is doing.\u00a0 Her name is Heather, apparently.\u00a0 It seems she’s adapting surprisingly well to the wolf although there have been near misses and some very close calls, sexually.\u00a0 He says the feral stage for a turned werewolf can take a year or more sometimes.<\/p>\n
I often sit and cry.\u00a0 The loss of either things – being a woman or a werewolf would’ve been an enormous blow but, both of them together is crushing.\u00a0 Stephen has had the front door of my house repaired and has been paying for my rent.\u00a0 He also went to my work place as my “legal representative” and informed them of the terrible accident I was involved in that led to Scott’s location.\u00a0 I’m somehow a minor hero because Stephen spun a tale to his cop friend that I saw Scott assaulting Heather.\u00a0 I guess I got out and tried to stop him and was beaten within an inch of my life.\u00a0 Heather backed up the story completely – even conveniently leading them to Scott’s warehouse.\u00a0 The story goes that she woke up in the warehouse and escaped, making her way into town until Scott found her again.\u00a0 And then I found both of them.\u00a0 It’s all very neat.\u00a0 I’m told my boss is holding my job for as long as I need.<\/p>\n
I still feel the pull of Stephen and Elaine.\u00a0 I still feel their pull as if I were their Alpha.\u00a0 And, they still feel my pull.\u00a0 After a month and a half in bed, I begged Elaine to have sex with me.\u00a0 Not because I wanted her but because I wanted to see if it would turn me back into a werewolf.\u00a0 Yes, I think she’s beautiful but that’s not what I wanted.\u00a0 I want the wolf back.\u00a0 I yelled at her when she said no.\u00a0 I thought of using the pull I still have in order to make her do it but I couldn’t bring myself to go that far.\u00a0 The next day, she came back with a syringe full of her blood.\u00a0 Tyler said that if there was nearly a foolproof way of doing it, it was injecting pure, fresh werewolf blood.<\/p>\n
It didn’t work.\u00a0 Stephen tried the next day and that didn’t work, either.\u00a0 Even Tyler tried.\u00a0 Nothing worked.\u00a0 I felt nothing and they smelled nothing on me.\u00a0 Just a pure human.\u00a0 Tyler says he’s never seen anything like it.\u00a0 He says I should’ve either changed or died trying by this point.\u00a0 He could see it failing with one try but not with three separate werewolves trying.\u00a0 Especially not a pure blood.<\/p>\n
I’m trying to get better so I can leave.\u00a0 I don’t think I can handle being around them anymore.\u00a0 Not with who they are.\u00a0 Not still feeling that pull but still being just a man.\u00a0 Not with them having the life I wanted.\u00a0 I don’t think I can do it.<\/p>\n
On a particularly bad night, Stephen visited.\u00a0 I hadn’t left the room in three days and I ignored Elaine when she tried to talk to me.\u00a0 So, in walks Stephen and he sits and he just looks quietly at me.\u00a0 I can’t look him in the eye.\u00a0 I can’t.\u00a0 Not him.<\/p>\n
“I know, you know,” he says.\u00a0 My heart skips several beats.\u00a0 “I remember that part of it.\u00a0 I remember hearing Thomas talking to you.\u00a0 Tyler says you just kneeled down and let it happen but I know what happened.\u00a0 I could smell what you were thinking.\u00a0 I could smell the emotions cycling through you.\u00a0 I know you hesitated.”<\/p>\n
I feel the shame burning deep inside of me and I wondered if I would be well enough to just leave that night.\u00a0 “So why are you letting me stay here,” I ask.\u00a0 “Why haven’t you kicked my ass to the curb?\u00a0 If I had left, you all would’ve died.”<\/p>\n
Stephen nods.\u00a0 “Yes, we would’ve.\u00a0 And I know how close you came to making that call.\u00a0 Look at me.”<\/p>\n
“I can’t,” I tell him.<\/p>\n
“Look at me, goddamn you!”<\/p>\n
I have never heard that much anger in Stephen’s voice.\u00a0 I have never heard him like that.\u00a0 Not Stephen.\u00a0 It shocks me enough that I look at him.\u00a0 Against my will.\u00a0 And then I can’t seem to look away.<\/p>\n
“You had an amazing gift.\u00a0 You had something you always wanted and something you never even knew you wanted and it changed who you were.\u00a0 It made you better.\u00a0 It made you into something incredible.\u00a0 It made you rethink who you were.\u00a0 And, in one single moment when faced with a decision that would take all of that away, you wavered.\u00a0 You took it all in and looked at all the sides and you paused.\u00a0 Should I hate you for that?\u00a0 Should I hate you because you thought for one second that maybe you could just walk away and let us die?\u00a0 No.\u00a0 No, goddammit.\u00a0 I admire you more for it.\u00a0 Because you looked at it and you didn’t just take the knee-jerk easy hero way out.\u00a0 You didn’t just say ‘Of course I’ll give it up because I’m the good guy!’\u00a0 You’re flawed and you’re human and you still looked at your choices and decided to give it up.\u00a0 Do you understand what I’m telling you?”<\/p>\n
I shake my head, hypnotized by his passion.<\/p>\n
“You… you honestly weighed our lives against yours and you still gave yours up.\u00a0 You could’ve died and you still did it.\u00a0 Knowing that the best option you could have was to lose all of the wonderful gifts you were given and possibly live.\u00a0 That simply living would be the best case scenario.\u00a0 You…” Stephen’s eyes are suddenly watering and red.\u00a0 “You kept your promise to me.”<\/p>\n
I’m crying now.\u00a0 I can’t help it.\u00a0 I’m balling in front of this man because I thought he would hate me.\u00a0 Because I thought I would lose them both.\u00a0 Because I thought I could do without them, that I could walk away in front of Thomas or I could walk away right now and that I would be okay without them.\u00a0 I can’t.\u00a0 Now, hearing all of this, I can’t walk away.\u00a0 I don’t notice when Stephen wraps his arms around me.\u00a0 He’s sitting behind me now with his arms around me.\u00a0 He’s so warm.\u00a0 For a little while there, I’d forgotten what it was like to be cold and then, as a human, I was rudely reminded.\u00a0 But Stephen is so warm around me.\u00a0 Holding me and gently rocking me.\u00a0 So strong and warm.\u00a0 I’m shaking from trying to hold the tears in and it hurts my chest and stomach but, above all of that, I hear him starting a simple song.\u00a0 Humming gently to me.\u00a0 Slowly, the tears stop and I just let everything go and relax in his arms.\u00a0 His heartbeat is strong and steady behind me.<\/p>\n
His humming stops and his voice is a whisper.\u00a0 “Please,” he tells me.\u00a0 “Please don’t leave us now.”\u00a0 I feel his hand on my cheek and I nuzzle against it and it feels right.\u00a0 Slowly, I turn in his lap and look at him.\u00a0 Those same eyes from that night.\u00a0 The same eyes just watching me, waiting to see which way I would go.\u00a0 Not giving me a hint of what he thinks I should do.\u00a0 My beautiful Stephen.<\/p>\n
Slowly, I lean forward and kiss him.\u00a0 Lightly, on the lips.\u00a0 As a man.\u00a0 No, as a person loving my mate.\u00a0 This is not a man in front of me.\u00a0 This is a soul that I have come to love.\u00a0 I feel no repulsion from him.\u00a0 I feel no hesitation or disgust.\u00a0 I just feel the scratch of his five o’clock shadow and his lips as they open for me.<\/p>\n
Stephen pulls back and runs his thumb along my chin.\u00a0 “I love you.”<\/p>\n
The tears are threatening to come back so I lay my forehead against his chest and breathe in his smell as deeply as I can.\u00a0 When I’m calm again, I whisper the words back to him.\u00a0 “I love you, too.”<\/p>\n
That night, Stephen and Elaine joined me in bed and it is the first night I slept without dreaming of red pain or Thomas.<\/p>\n
Over the next several months, we rediscover each other.\u00a0 Slowly.\u00a0 As mates.\u00a0 As a man, I never thought I would love the touch of another man but I find, unsurprisingly, that Stephen is exactly who he was when I was a woman.\u00a0 His touch still fills me with desire for him.\u00a0 I catch myself staring at his crotch quite a few times, remembering what it felt like in my mouth.\u00a0 Remember the taste of him.\u00a0 Remembering the way he would groan and hold me when I sucked on him.<\/p>\n
He still makes those noises.\u00a0 I was nervous the first time I touched his penis again.\u00a0 Even with the kisses we’d been sharing lately, I worried that I was crossing a line.\u00a0 I thought he wouldn’t want it.\u00a0 But I could feel the need building in me now that I was healing.\u00a0 The ache deep in my balls that tells me how wound up I am.\u00a0 And so, one night with all three of us on the couch watching some random action movie, I put my hand on his thigh.\u00a0 When he didn’t flinch, I slowly moved my hand to his pants and rubbed him lightly.\u00a0 He was hard in a minute and growling from my touch.\u00a0 I felt Elaine scoot away to the side but my thoughts were far away from her.\u00a0 Stephen… my mate… was here.\u00a0 And while I no longer had a pussy for him, I had other ways to please him and I ached for his touch.\u00a0 So, I rubbed him a little harder.\u00a0 When he didn’t stop me, I reached my hands into his pants to touch his cock.<\/p>\n
I’d forgotten.\u00a0 I’d forgotten how warm it was.\u00a0 The head of his dick is quite pointed these days and, reaching down, it felt like he had a golf ball sized knot just above his balls. Perhaps a little smaller than that but it was definitely there. \u00a0His foreskin is nearly a sheath around the knot and his length.\u00a0 I’d say he was thicker than before but I was a different person then and my measurements might be off.\u00a0 The head of his cock easily clears the top of his pants and I can tell it hurt to be restrained.\u00a0 So, I unzipped him, careful of catching skin in the zipper.\u00a0 I’m a guy.\u00a0 I know how that hurts.\u00a0 And then, I got to my knees in front of him.\u00a0 When I felt his finger under my chin, I resisted until he asked me gently to look at him.<\/p>\n
His eyes were half golden and he looked down at me with lust in those golden eyes.\u00a0 His voice was gruffer and more gravely than it should’ve been.\u00a0 “You’re beautiful,” he told me.<\/p>\n
I look back down and feel the heat rise to my cheeks.\u00a0 I am hard and aching for him.\u00a0 I feel the pulsing of my dick in time to my heartbeat and so I slip my hands into my pants to touch myself while I lean forward to Stephen’s cock.\u00a0 His foreskin is slightly loose.\u00a0 I wrap my hand around his cock and gently pull the foreskin down and down further until it’s touching his small, hard knot.\u00a0 And then I pull it down below the knot and let go.\u00a0 Unlike human foreskin, it stays in place beneath his knot.\u00a0 His skin was more smooth and pink than it should be as a human but that was okay.\u00a0 In fact, it was kind of hot.\u00a0 Old werewolf fantasies kicking in there.\u00a0 I lick up the length of him, holding him from the base of his cock, under his ball.\u00a0 I nibble on his knot to feel how hard it is and then gently lick up his shaft again.\u00a0 He is incredibly hard and, with my nose right there, I smell his pre-cum as it pools out of the tip of his huge cock.\u00a0 I look up at him and watch his eyes as I lick him clean.\u00a0 It’s a major turn-on for me when a woman does it so I assume it’s the same if a man does it.\u00a0 Memories of myself as a woman came back briefly but I put them aside.\u00a0 I’m me and I love this man.\u00a0 With his tip clean, I wrap my lips around his cock and gently work him over with my tongue.<\/p>\n
I don’t need to close my eyes and think of myself as a woman.\u00a0 I don’t need to think anything different at all.\u00a0 All I need is to hear the low, quiet growling in Stephen’s voice as I slowly and carefully find how far I can take him into my mouth.\u00a0 Which, sadly, isn’t very far.\u00a0 My gag reflex is different as a man than as a woman and he’s huge so when I feel the wolf-like tip near the back of my throat, I’m done.\u00a0 Gagging is not sexy.\u00a0 I pull back and, rather than trying to force it, I just suck on the top of him.\u00a0 Back and forth, holding my mouth open just enough that my teeth don’t touch him.\u00a0 My jaw is starting to ache but I try to ignore it.\u00a0 I don’t want to stop yet.\u00a0 Not yet. \u00a0I want to taste his cum again.\u00a0 Just the thought of it makes me rub myself harder.\u00a0 I should’ve unzipped my pants but I’m not going to take a break to do it.\u00a0 God.\u00a0 His smell is driving me wild.\u00a0 I start pumping his cock faster with my hand while swirling my tongue around his smooth, tapered head.\u00a0 Faster and faster.\u00a0 My jaw really hurts now and it’s hard to ignore the pain but I suddenly feel Stephen’s hand gripping my hair.\u00a0 He’s grunting and I feel him tense.\u00a0 Shit.\u00a0 Shit.\u00a0 I forgot how-<\/p>\n
The sudden flood of Stephen’s cum makes me choke.\u00a0 He feels it happening and tries to pull me off but I grip him tighter and try to relax my throat.\u00a0 He’s warm and salty and thick and there’s so fucking much of it.\u00a0 I try to swallow every time he tenses and that helps.\u00a0 My own orgasm takes me by surprise because I’d simply forgotten about it.\u00a0 I’m still stroking myself reflexively and I just feel the sudden release and a spurt of cum that hits my shirt. \u00a0My dick swells a second time and then I’m done.\u00a0 Stephen tenses once more but I don’t feel anything hit the back of my throat.\u00a0 I pull back but not before lightly rubbing the very tip of him with my tongue.\u00a0 It takes a lot of willpower to do it but I look up at him shyly.\u00a0 His face is flushed and his canine teeth are more pronounced.\u00a0 He’s looking at me with… with… love.\u00a0 And happiness.\u00a0 And lust.\u00a0 He runs his fingers through my short blond hair and I smile at him.\u00a0 The taste of his cum fills my whole mouth and it’s just as amazing as I remembered.<\/p>\n
There’s a rustle on the other end of the couch and Elaine stands.\u00a0 She’s got her red hair pulled back in a simple ponytail and she’s blushing furiously.\u00a0 She’s got pajama pants on (rocket ship pattern and weird green aliens, naturally) with one of Stephen’s old t-shirts.\u00a0 “That,” she says.\u00a0 “Was incredibly hot.\u00a0 If you two don’t mind?”\u00a0 Elaine hooks her thumbs into her pants and eases them down.\u00a0 Becoming a werewolf has made her incredibly toned.\u00a0 She’s still slim but the line of muscles in her thighs shift as she wriggles her ass playfully.\u00a0 She watches me closely while she does the same little show with her panda bear panties.\u00a0 Her lower stomach has a line of red hair from her trimmed pussy up to her belly button.\u00a0\u00a0 I’d be surprised if she had an ounce of fat on her.\u00a0 Elaine twirls slowly for me as she pulls her shirt over her head.\u00a0 Her ass seems larger than when I first met her.\u00a0 Oh, and her hips, too.\u00a0 She’s definitely filled out post-wolf.<\/p>\n
I crawl-walk to her on my knees but she holds up a finger.\u00a0 “No.\u00a0 It’s my turn.”\u00a0 I stop and she goes to her hands and knees and crawls to me.\u00a0 Her eyes are locked on mine so I watch as flecks of gold appear in her eyes and then more and more until her eyes are a beautiful molten gold color.\u00a0 She gently places a hand on my chest and pushes me until I’m lying down.\u00a0 With a playful smirk, she tugs my pants and underwear completely off.\u00a0 A large part of me wants to hide my manhood but I stop myself before it happens.\u00a0 I have to move around to help her get my shirt off but we do and I’m naked and, well, lesser than when I was a woman.\u00a0 Just an average shaped man.\u00a0 Elaine lies above me and I feel the warmth of her radiating from her body.\u00a0 Her kiss is sudden and sweet and intense and I prick myself on her too-sharp teeth.\u00a0 She’s purring deep in her throat as our tongues twine around each other.\u00a0 My hands reach for her back and I knead my fingers into her flesh.\u00a0 She flexes back at me and then lowers herself, pressing her wet sex against my semi-hard cock.<\/p>\n
Elaine breaks the kiss and then moves her head down to nuzzle at my neck.\u00a0 I feel a sharp pinch and then a quiet ‘sorry’ as she nibbles me.\u00a0 Slowly, rhythmically she pushes her hips down, back, up and forward.\u00a0 I can feel myself growing completely hard under her ministrations and she growls her approval.\u00a0 My fingertips feel fine hairs along her back and I wonder if that’s new or if I just haven’t noticed them before.\u00a0 Holding herself up with one hand, Elaine reaches back to grab my cock.\u00a0 She rubs herself against the head of it and then slowly eases herself down, hissing out in appreciation as her tight pussy eagerly grips my length.\u00a0 With my time as a woman and the months spent resting and healing, I’d forgotten what it was like to have a dick again.\u00a0 I’d forgotten how it felt to press into a woman and feel the depth of her.\u00a0 I’d forgotten the slippery heat of a woman riled up.\u00a0 Elaine’s modest chest is in perfect position for me to lean forward and take a nipple in my mouth so, with care for my still aching body, I do.\u00a0 She’s slightly salty from a light sheen of sweat but she moans and shudders as I suck and bite at her.\u00a0 I remember how I liked my nipples played with and I try to alternate between lightly rubbing around her erect nipple with my tongue and biting and pulling at it with my teeth.\u00a0 I swear I feel her breast grow larger as I suck at her.\u00a0 My body finally tells me I’ve strained too much too soon so I lie back down.\u00a0 Elaine goes to her knees above me.<\/p>\n
Her breasts are<\/i><\/b> slightly larger than just a moment ago and the hair around her pussy is thicker.\u00a0 Her four canine teeth are protruding from her mouth and there is a slight bit of drool at the corner of her lips.\u00a0 She’s working her ass back and forth, up and down as she rides me.\u00a0 I see the tell-tale signs of her wolf’s nipples growing – six darkening circles that pucker and pull and twist and push out around small areola and then out again into small breasts.\u00a0 The happy trail is extending up her belly and between her breasts as she growls and grunts through the small changes.\u00a0 Elaine’s left hand touches her bottom tit and she tweaks it with her clawed fingers.\u00a0 With her other hand, she presses the hard black padding under her index finger against her clit.\u00a0 I’m momentarily jealous of her because I definitely remember what that feels like.\u00a0 Her growls are deepening and her fingers are jerking harder against her breasts and clit.\u00a0 Her previously smooth rhythm falters now and again from the multiple sensations.<\/p>\n
Elaine falls forwards to her hands, claws digging into the thick carpeting around us.\u00a0 She’s no longer gentle.\u00a0 No longer slow.\u00a0 Her ass is pounding me up and down and it’s almost painful.\u00a0 Painful but amazing as I feel her pussy tighten.\u00a0 Her breathing is ragged and I know what’s about to happen.\u00a0 Her orgasm makes her throw her head back into a silent howl.\u00a0 I grab her ass as she shakes from the shock of it and I pull her down hard as I push up.\u00a0 She’s gasping now.\u00a0 Growling, nuzzling my neck. She lies down on me and I feel all eight of her breasts and the fur along her belly as I use my hands to work her hips up and down on my cock.\u00a0 I’m aching from my last orgasm and it almost feels like I won’t cum a second time but Elaine bites my neck hard and I suddenly feel myself almost there.\u00a0 I yell out in pain and slam her down hard and I feel the head of my dick hit something deep inside of her pussy.\u00a0 And then, we’re both cumming.\u00a0 Elaine has her teeth in my neck and I feel the inside of her clenching over and over against my cock, milking me for the last bits of my cum.<\/p>\n
She’s fucking heavy.\u00a0 Elaine is half transformed and laying against me, breathing hard.\u00a0 I want her to move but I don’t want her to leave.\u00a0 I don’t notice when her changes reverse but when I feel her hand against my chest, it’s just a hand.\u00a0 I can barely feel the rough padding on the bottom of her palm as it fades away to wherever the changes go when they turn human.<\/p>\n
I feel my face burn at a sudden thought and I almost don’t say anything.\u00a0 Almost.\u00a0 But I want to and so I force it out.\u00a0 “Stephen,” I begin.\u00a0 I certainly am not looking at him when I say it.\u00a0 “Do\u00a0 you… do you think we could try it from behind some time?\u00a0 Gently?”\u00a0 He doesn’t answer at first and I have my eyes closed because I’m embarrassed as hell.\u00a0 I suddenly feel his presence next to me and then his lips brush mine as his large hand touches my dick.\u00a0 I jerk from the unexpected touch.<\/p>\n
“Yeah,” he says. \u00a0“Yeah, I think we should.\u00a0 And then one of these days I’ll go to my hands and knees for my mate.”\u00a0 He kisses me again and ten minutes later we all end up in the bed, giggling and laughing and loving each other.<\/p>\n
A pigeon knocks on our door a week later.\u00a0 We were just starting to settle into a routine when Elaine hears a quiet pecking at the front door.\u00a0 She opens the door and looks confused for a moment before looking down to see a small gray and white pigeon with a tube tied to its leg.\u00a0 “Awww,” she whines.\u00a0 “Why couldn’t it be a rabbit or a squirrel again?”\u00a0 Elaine holds the utterly docile bird and carefully unties the tube.\u00a0 When she does, the pigeon’s eyes go suddenly wild and it struggles in her hand.\u00a0 She sighs and tosses it outside and then brings me the note.<\/p>\n
The message is short: “The skin no longer works.<\/i>”\u00a0 I don’t know whether to be happy or sad or indifferent.\u00a0 No, that’s a lie.\u00a0 It hurts to be reminded of what happened and what I lost.\u00a0 It hurts a lot.\u00a0 I ghost through the rest of the day and the next before I remind myself that it doesn’t matter anymore.\u00a0 Elaine and Stephen and I share a powerful bond still and we’re all learning exactly what that means and who we are.\u00a0 I’ve learned so much and grown so much that I can’t be anything but thankful for the experience.<\/p>\n
Two weeks after the pigeon and it seems Elaine was right about Tyler and Heather.\u00a0 They’re spending more and more time together and she’s convinced him to take some classes at the local community college. It’s a warm summer night when Tyler calls to ask if he could come over to talk to everyone.\u00a0 Thirty minutes later, he shows up with Heather and we’re all in the living room together.\u00a0 I’m sitting with Stephen and Elaine on the couch while Heather and Tyler sit on the smaller love seat.\u00a0 He still looks awkward for some reason.<\/p>\n
Heather is pretty and I catch myself looking at her clothes and shoes and the little details of her face.\u00a0 Slight acne issues and her makeup is a little off.\u00a0 Oh god.\u00a0 I’m a terrible person.\u00a0\u00a0 I’m definitely<\/i><\/b> blaming this one on Hannah.\u00a0 Heather’s got blond hair and a heart-shaped face with little dimples in her cheeks.\u00a0 She seems quiet and a bit shy but I can see a small spark in her eyes and I wonder if it was there before all of this happened or if it came because of it.\u00a0 After sitting uncomfortably for a couple of minutes, Heather pokes Tyler in the side and he shakes himself.<\/p>\n
“So, ummm…”\u00a0 Tyler steals a glance at me and then talks to the floor.\u00a0 “So, I was wondering.\u00a0 You guys have a pretty big house and I was wondering, ummm, if, you know.\u00a0 If we could stay with you.\u00a0 We’d totally stay out of the way and pay our side.\u00a0 I’m starting a part time job doing some welding work and I can pay my way.”<\/p>\n
Heather looks at me when she talks. \u00a0“I’m going to be mostly gone at the university but it’s not too far to drive.”<\/p>\n
Nobody is asking the question so I do.\u00a0 “Why?\u00a0 You two are a couple, right?\u00a0 Don’t you want your own space?”<\/p>\n
Heather blushes but answers.\u00a0 “It’s… it’s hard to explain.\u00a0 I hated living with my parents.\u00a0 They’re okay but they drive me up the wall.\u00a0 I mean, I lived with them for eighteen years and I just wanted to get out and do my own thing.\u00a0 And then… and then after that night… I felt different.\u00a0 I feel this odd loneliness.\u00a0 Something is missing.\u00a0 I haven’t been sleeping very well and sometimes I just wander around the house but I can’t remember why.\u00a0 I keep looking for something.\u00a0 I finally asked Tyler about it.\u00a0 He says… he says I’m looking for a pack.\u00a0 I… this is all still really weird for me.\u00a0 But, already I feel more at ease just sitting here.\u00a0 I didn’t notice anything until we moved out a few months back.\u00a0 I feel safe here.\u00a0 We both do.\u00a0 I’m not trying to play a sob story and emotionally blackmail any of you into letting us stay but we wanted to ask.”<\/p>\n
I look at Stephen but he just looks back at me.\u00a0 And I feel Elaine’s eyes on me.\u00a0 And Tyler’s.\u00a0 And Heather’s.\u00a0 “No,” I tell Stephen.\u00a0 “It’s your house.\u00a0 Don’t look at me to make a decision.\u00a0 I think it’s fine but it’s your house.”<\/p>\n
The bastard winks at me and grins.\u00a0 “Well, if you’re fine with it then so am I.\u00a0 We can help move you back this weekend.”\u00a0 He stands and puts his hand out.\u00a0 “Welcome home.”<\/p>\n
The handshake turns into a massive sappy hug merry-go-round and Heather actually cries a little bit.\u00a0 It’s a good moment and I can physically feel the emotions in the room.\u00a0 Heather isn’t the only one tearing up because I feel sudden tears and a lump in my throat.<\/p>\n
Later that night, I seclude myself in the bathroom.\u00a0 Stephen’s house is huge but I don’t feel right hiding out in one of the bedrooms or the study when I need a moment to myself.\u00a0 So, I typically use the second bathroom to just sit quietly and reflect. \u00a0I still feel like an emotional wreck from earlier and there’s an undercurrent of sadness running through all of it that makes my chest ache.\u00a0 Pack.\u00a0 Pack, they said.\u00a0 But I’m no wolf.\u00a0 I’m just me.\u00a0 I feel the bond as strong as it was when Stephen and Elaine first changed but that’s all it is.\u00a0 I know they love me and I feel like I have a solid place here without a hint of pity but the difference still hurts.\u00a0 Sudden hot tears fall from my eyes and I cry as quietly as possible.\u00a0 It hurts more than I think it should.\u00a0 My face feels hot and my heart is aching.\u00a0 I bend over to try to stop the shaking and then press the heel of my hand against my chest.<\/p>\n
And then I stop.<\/p>\n
With trembling fingers, I explore the left side of my chest.\u00a0 And then, I stand and stare at the mirror.\u00a0 Not wanting to take a chance to believe but not willing to just ignore the possibility, I lift up my shirt.<\/p>\n
My left nipple is three times the size it should be and there is a dark areola surrounding it.\u00a0 I feel the flesh around my right nipple tighten as it darkens and then puffs out slightly.\u00a0 Small blond chest hairs fall out around the developing areola and, as I watch, my right nipple swells and thickens until it matches the size of my left nipple.\u00a0 When I gently touch the new soft, sensitive flesh, I do so with fingers longer and smoother than they should be.\u00a0 Fine brown hairs grow out around the areola.\u00a0 I feel muscles and tissues tugging and pulling deep within my chest.<\/p>\n
With eyes open in wonder, I touch the small hairs on slowly swelling breasts.\u00a0 Brown rather than blond.<\/p>\n
Brown.<\/p>\n
A storm of hidden scents suddenly fills my nose and sounds crash into my ears.\u00a0 I hear Elaine moving pots around at the other side of the house.\u00a0 It sounds like one of the pots hits the floor suddenly and then I hear running.\u00a0 I smell Elaine coming.\u00a0 I smell her.\u00a0 \u00a0Elaine almost breaks the door down before she remembers how to open it.\u00a0 She stares and her eyes are wide.<\/p>\n
“You,” she stutters.\u00a0 “You’re… You…\u00a0 I can smell you again.”<\/p>\n
We hug and cry as the deep pain starts.\u00a0 From the shadows at the back of my mind, I hear a mental huff sound as the she-wolf makes herself known again.\u00a0 I feel a very solid “Where the hell have you been?” question directed at me from her and I wish I knew how to answer.<\/p>\n
Elaine holds me tightly as the changes accelerate and I can’t tell if I’m laughing or crying or screaming or shouting with joy.<\/p>\n
She’s come back to me.\u00a0 My she-wolf has come back to me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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